We all need Hope

Well I am new to blogging and have been feeling for a long time that I need to be better about documenting some of the experiences I have so that I look back and appreciate them and remember the lessons I learned. We all go through hard times in our lives and I realize that most of us wouldn't trade our problems for someone else's. We know our problems are tailor made for us and though they are hard and uncomfortable, somehow we know we are meant to tackle them, and learn and grow from them. To take it a step further, I'm realizing more and more that when we are able to struggle through and then also help others to struggle through their challenges, that's what life is about. When God helps us through our challenges and then we thank Him but leave it there, I wonder if He feels bad knowing that we then have the ability to help others by giving them the tools we just learned and the hope we can give them that they took can make it through and yet we keep those experiences to ourselves. Maybe it's so that others don't judge us, maybe it's because we don't want others thinking that we think we know it all, or maybe life is just busy and we don't take the time to then help others. Either way, for me, I had the lighting bolt of a thought or inspiration that hit me, "do you care more about what others think of you or what God thinks of you". I also felt that it's selfish for me to have been helped soooo much by others, God most of all and to then not be willing to turn around and help others struggling. This was a paradigm shift that I have needed and why this blog is born.

I don't know if my experiences really will be able to help others, but I'm willing to at least be vulnerable and put my private life out there in case it does. I also know that selfishly, writing helps me sort through things more and heal myself too. So here we are. I've struggled in a lot of areas through out my life and maybe sometimes I will go back to the past and tell about some of those experiences. I really can say that looking back, I truly love each of the hard times I went through. They were excruciating and so hard, but I'm grateful for what they taught me and the growth I had because of them and I wouldn't trade them for anything. Right now, my biggest challenge is something I'm currently in the middle of, so I'll start there. Being married before, I've struggled with infertility for about 15 ears (off and on). So here are some of my recent experiences.